I Am Not Giving Up

by - 2/08/2018 04:01:00 PM

Losing all my enthusiasm to write on my blog/ diary for a good number of reasons has left me somewhat feeling uneasy and often times, I find myself doubting every decision that I've made for my blog. C'mmon! It's not like there's a million people reading what I write. My life's just not that interesting enough for me to even make it public. I'm sorry... my life is pretty boring.

If you have been reading my blog ever since I started out on tumblr then moved to blogspot, then you probably already know how much I used to share from different kinds of poop to late night musings and all the rants and drama that everyone goes through at one (or maybe a couple more times) in their lives. I reverted most of it to draft mainly because, as I grew older, I realized that not everything should be shared online (especially really important info that people can easily get from the internet and use against you). Trust me, there's a lot of creeps out there. I never encountered anything serious but I have dealt with a number of internet trolls way back and, you have to admit, it's not pleasant to have people get your info and use it against you.

I don't really blame the creeps and aging for the sudden loss of enthusiasm because, for the longest time, that's what I have been doing. Now I have come to realize that I'm in that phase where I'm unsure of a lot of things. Don't get me wrong, I still have my shit together. I'm not a mess. Your girl still got it. This is just a phase. I am not giving up on you yet, blog. Not yet. Not ever!

I read somewhere in the internet that, once in a while, it's normal to lose interest in something you know you love doing. But no matter what, you have to remember that you love doing it and you just have to do it. That shocked me in the realization that as much as I'd like to think that I'm a very committed person, I'm not. Blogging is a commitment and my commitment to blogging is just not enough.

My boyfriend, Carl, keeps reminding me to blog and not give up and I'm really grateful that I have someone to encourage me to blog and he even gives constructive criticism to every post I make! I am just thankful. I love you, babeeeh!

I'm probably gonna end up publishing this unedited, again. So to wrap this post up, I just want to say I am not giving up. Also, Getting older just made me realize (even more) that no matter the situation, whatever circumstance you're in, you just gotta do you. You don't need to please everyone because, girl, you can't! Nu-uh. No one in history has ever pleased everyone (not even Jesus!). You'll just exhaust your happy, confident, strong self by trying to. So just do you! Do what makes you feel alive. Surround yourself with people who makes you feel good just by existing. Eat what warms your soul (in moderation and in a healthy amount).

Okay, I don't know if I made sense. haha! Okay, I'm gonna stop now. byeeee!!!

from my heart to yours,

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